I feel good! :)

A day after the interview, the company wrote me an offer letter. Quite fast, don't you think? Probably they found what they were looking for. So yeah, that made me excited. But reading their terms and conditions got me all freaked out. I guess this should happen, considering the fact that I were spoiled more than 6 years in a company that doesn't record annual leaves and MCs, got tolerated for consistently coming late for work (I almost never arrive on time, usually it's half an hour late and I'm still the earliest) and still receive bonus and increment. So no doubt I deserve to be freaked out by rules and regulations.

This morning, I handed my resignation letter to my boss. I sat in front of him feeling guilty (for wanting to leave when the company is cram with workload), and very sad (hey, it feels like I'm leaving my family) and also curious (wonder how he's gonna react?). Judging from the look on his face, I thought he was going to say, "Fine, you can go. Good luck with your new job" or something that sounded like that. To tell you all the truth, I don't really expect any counter offer from him, although I do hope he will so that I can leave without feeling like a loser. But it was just impossible, you know why? Firstly because the amount of salary I requested equals the pay of another staff who is 5 years older than me. If he granted my request, imagine the amount he has to pay the senior sebab takkan la nak bagi gaji kitorg sama level, betul tak? Tu belum cerita gaji QS lain yang sebaya dgn aku, kopak kompeni nak membayo! And secondly, with the numbers of resumes pouring in, I don't think it's hard to find a replacement. Bak kata pepatah, patah tumbuh hilang berganti. Sekali petik sepuluh mari.

But instead, he asked whether I can still consider. He said if my decision to leave were because I hate staying or because the other company was too good, than he couldn't do anything. But if the reason was money, then to him it was merely a small matter. "Kita boleh bincang..." (Oh, really?) For a while, I thought about what he said. It's true I like working there, but it's also true I wanted higher pay. And is the other company THAT good? I don't know. So why not I just let myself consider whatever he has to offer? If it's good, I'll take it. But if not, I leave. I finally told him that whatever it is, please decide and get back to me fast because I have to make a decision within seven days.

Later in the afternoon, he came to me saying, "By hook or by crook, you cannot leave". It turned out that another partner also insisted that I stay. If my boss failed to persuade me, the partner was going to talk to me himself. My boss also asked me to convey his message to my ' new boss' (who happens to be his friend) that no matter what, Azury is staying.

My body was floating... my feet were no longer on the ground. It truly felt like a dream.

It was unbelievable.

Because honestly, am I that good? Am I worth to be fought over for?

All I can say is, maybe I should stop being so critical of myself and stop underestimating my own capabilities. Because maybe... just maybe, I am actually good :)

When I talked to my mom about it, she asked how it feels to be neeeeeded and appreciaaaaated (That's how she said it). Well mom, you already knew the answer. Of course la I feel GOOD!!

So now, we just have to wait and see what's the offer going to be...